Day 11- The Dread of Eating
Over the past few days, a completely unexpected feeling has come over me: The desire not to eat. You would think that someone living on a rather modest budget if a $1 per day would jump at the idea of any food, but the opposite is turning out to be true.
For the past few days, I’ve put off eating as much as possible. I have plenty of food, I know what I can afford to eat, and yet I find myself putting it off.
I think the root of the problem is that food makes me feel slow and sluggish now. Any food. If I have small bowl of spaghetti, I feel like taking a nap for an hour. If I eat a hard boiled egg, I feel like I just had a seven course meal. My body seems to have adapted to the point where any food is interpreted as gorging.Once I eat for the first time in the day, food for the rest of the day seems more appealing, but I’m regularly delaying that first meal of the day until 6pm or 7pm.